it became in his imagination his impossible, lifelong task, his hard trial, like that of a man he had read about somewhere, whose curse it was to push a boulder up a steep hill, only to have the giant who guarded the hill roll the boulder down again – and so on, forever, throughout eternity.james baldwin, GO TELL IT ON THE MOUNTAIN
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my “aesthetic” is pretty basic. 90x90 icons and the occasional bold or italics. aesthetic =/= your worth in the rp world. 💕 down with icon-less threads too.due to migraines and needing glasses, i tend to avoid certain container themes, links that blend and/or float into the background, excessive spacing between words, sub small writing and the gradient/multi-color text option.
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summary.
august was born in atlanta, georgia, to lisa and joseph collins. he doesn’t remember his mother, who left when he was two years old. his dad, a grocery stocker and a freelance artist, raised him on his own. their bond was one full of hugs and laughter and understanding. when school came around, august struggled to fit in. he didn’t talk much and enjoyed his space. over the years, teachers labeled him a troublemaker, problem student, nuisance. he was bullied by classmates and instructors alike.at nine years old, august was pulled from school and his dad began homeschooling him. the freedoms and decreased stresses improved his self-confidence, while their bond was strengthened by a shared love for art. august carried his backpack everywhere, always eager to learn a new lesson from parent and mentor.as they walked home one night, a robber approached them. august’s dad shielded him from the bullets. august was twelve. he’s been on his own ever since, traveling from place to place, trying to survive. his backpack and its cherished treasures are everything he has left of his dad. through a worn notebook, he’ll look through old artwork and i love you messages. just to pretend he’s not gone.
basics.
name: august collins.
nicknames: auggie, gus.
gender: cis boy.
birthday: february 10.
age: 13.
appearance: stands at 4'11". thin, scrawny. oversized hoodies and t-shirts. baggy jeans. smudged, beat up sneakers. band-aids covering face and arms. slouched shoulders. clenched fists. boyish grins. soft, tired eyes. a laugh that could power the sun.
status: homeless.
location: varies. lives on the streets.
religion: catholic.
family: lisa collins, mother, status unknown. joseph collins, father, deceased.
languages: english, sign language.
accent: a combination of rural tennessee and big city georgia. the result of his daddy coming from birchwood, tennessee and august being raised in atlanta, georgia.
health.
conditions: autism, depression, primary immune deficiency disease.
scars: extensive scarring on the knuckles of each hand, scar along forehead, scar across chin, self harm scar on the inside of right forearm.
disabilities: dyscalculia.
other: selectively mute (communicates through sign language and notebook). chronic pain (migraines and neuropathy). mild vitamin b12 deficiency.
allergies: he gets seasonal allergies.
phobias: nyctophobia (fear of the dark), astraphobia (fear of thunder and lightning), thantophobia (fear of losing a loved one), athazagoraphobia (fear of being forgotten, ignored, or abandoned).
more.
items: carries a pocket knife, specifically a sog twitch XL. keeps his possessions in a worn backpack. treasured items include a walkman cassette player and a teddy bear named kody.
personality: honest, big hearted, angry, stubborn, creative, streetwise, protective, kind.
notes.
august is a highly emotional kid full of anxiety, sadness, and compassion. he has the biggest heart but trusts only a select few. he is an orphan, victim of bullying, and lives on the streets. he seeks independence and forges careful bonds.
he is selectively mute. when talking out loud proves too much, he uses sign language or writes in his notebook. also has moments where he does neither, avoiding signed and written conversation entirely.
his experiences, fear of abandonment, nightmares – none of this suddenly goes away because he’s given love and food and a place to sleep. i compare his healing to a road. it’s not a straight, smooth road. rather, healing for him is a road rife with bumps, wrong turns, breaks to rest and refuel.
while soft-hearted, he isn’t a constant ray of sunshine. like anyone, he has bad days. he will run away. he will get into fights and return bruised, beaten, seething. he will snap at others, isolate himself, go silent, and push away those who love him.
he has killed when his own life was in danger. his pocket knife is a survival tool and he rarely, if ever, parts with it.
in any interaction where august stays with your muse, he can’t attend a physical school. he will have to be homeschooled. subject-wise, he would excel in writing, reading, and art. he has dyscalculia, a math disability, that’s gone undiagnosed. he thinks his brain is broken and considers himself lazy and dumb.